So. I’m making travel plans out-of-state. For the first time in three years. For the first time since I had Lyme. This is a big deal.
And since I’m 98% symptom free (with the other 2% being lingering mycoplasmas that we uncover from time to time), I am embarking on a new season of my life where I no longer have to pack a separate suitcase just for my supplements. I am not stressed about having a bad day nor what will I do if I get really sick. Nor am I worried about How in the world am I going to EAT without being able to buy my own groceries???. I am also not worried about losing the joy of the trip due to massive amounts of pain and inflammation that I may be experiencing.
Not only that, but I am driving 16 hours away. In a car. With multiple children. And I’m grinning while I’m writing this because I TOTALLY CAN’T WAIT to spend this time with my kids and show them how long distance trips can be really fun. I’m not stressed about the tiny bit of sleep I’ll get- I know that if I get tired, I will simply pop some multivitamins and that will give me energy. I’m not worried about weather fluctuation causing a painful shift in symptoms. I know that I will feel the same tomorrow as I do today: good.
I am now 6 months out from my first energy work appointment and I am doing amazing. New layers of healing continue to occur, physically, emotionally and spiritually and as I think about that, I want to address the “Onion Effect” that the healing process entails.
The Onion Effect describes the healing process as one like the layers of an onion- you must uncover one layer of disease in order to get to another layer. The deeper you go, the more rooted the disease/symptom and the more necessary it is to set your will to resolve it.
Notice I said: “Set your will.” You know what that means? It means you have to want healing. And you have to want it bad.
As I’ve begun this healing journey I have uncovered more CRAP that has attracted disease and un-well being to me and every time I discover more I stand at a crossroads: Do I want to forgive and resolve it? Or do I want to hang on to it and stay sick? How bad do I want it?
See, when I had Lyme, I lost out on three years of my children’s infancies, their sweet faces and living life. When I came out of Lyme, I decided that I was gonna get well and stay well, no matter the cost, no matter how hard, no matter how difficult. I’ve had to forgive ancestors, immediate family, myself. I’ve had to look at how I’ve contributed to this disease, How I defined myself by having Lyme, How I’ve tried to justify unforgiveness. And now the layers are coming off. I’m looking harder and deeper- letting unhealthy relationships go, and then trusting in new ones. And while all this seems, so, well, psychological, understand that the connection between the mental self and the physical self is not only valid, but must be addressed to obtain healing.
It’s a bit uncomfortable, but you have to experience a bit of pain to take the splinter out before the wound can heal.
So, now that I’m addressing parts of the onion that have never been revealed, I have a choice to make, do I dive in? Or let it fester quietly attracting negativity?
Hm. This one is a no brainer.
Hi,
Found your blog online searching for info about Samento. Daughter does not tolerate most meds supplements etc. We are trying just Samento for now and going slow.
I read one of your past posts about Samento and throat-gland swelling. Our daughter has this. She also has food allergies and they seem to be worsening.
Last night after restarting Samento, her throat felt like it was closing swelling–Benadryl did not help as when allergy related.
She has horrible anxiety and of course this symptom is not helping her anxiety. Do you remember how long the throat issues lasted on Samento? She is only taking two drops per day. Like I said we are going very, very slow. Started back in April on 1/2, then one , it has been about a month on two drops with a few breaks in between.
I felt a little better after reading you had what sounds like same throat issues . I worry as she does that it is an allergic reaction. Last night she also had some numbness in face and burning in knuckles after dose.
I have not read your entire blog, but plan on doing so. It sounds like you are doing well. I am so glad to read that you are getting your life back.. Our daughter has been sick since 2008 and no life. She is 16 now and life is passing her by. I dream of the days that she will be able to live life again.
Enjoy your trip and best to you, Jane Hope to hear reply.
I’m so glad you left a comment. I don’t remember how long the throat swelling lasted, but generally it’s indicitive of lymphatic distress/being clogged up. I actually gave up on Samento and Banderol b/c it was too hard on me to take. The inflammation was just really difficult- the throat swelling is just your lymphatic system in overdrive, trying to do a whole bunch of things that it’s took stressed to do. 😦
I have only found one thing that has made me free of Lyme- and that is the Energy Work that I have been doing with my mom. Please check out my Blog Post called “My Cure”- it will explain what my process was like. I have been free from Lyme for over 6 months and am now starting to eat foods normally that I’ve not been able to since I contracted Lyme. I literally have my life back- and I can tell you that *nothing* consistantly worked (as you’ll be able to read in my very early posts); I always relapsed back into symptoms. This had been life changing for me. You can check out my mom’s blog that talks about what the process looks like (it’s a new blog, so there aren’t a whole lot of posts).
http://stopstruggling.wordpress.com/
We’re are an email away- feel free to contact one of us for more information.
nataliedmorris@gmail.com